kau bukan untukku.....

jauh disudut hati.... aku mmg inginkan mu..... tapi.... ku sedar sapa diri ini... aku bukan sapa2..aku entah apa2.... ku tahu kau inginkan nya.... dan ku tau juga dirinya sembunyikan sesuatu.... yg mungkin tentang dirimu.... dan dirinya takut melukai diri ini...wahai dirinya... aku bersedia terima apa saja berita tentang kalian... mungkin dirinya tidak menyimpan perasaan terhadap dirimu... tapi hatiku kuat mengatakan dirimu menyukai dirinya....

hanya dengan menatap wajahmu dari jauh... sudah cukup bagi diriku..... biarlah aku terus menyimpan hasrat hati ini.... mungkin itu lebih baik.... 

                                                       
                                                            ~ cinta dalam hati~ 

is it you???

im mean it....

WOMAN

I worked late but you don't wait up
My bones ache and i'm cleaning the place up
Sometimes i wonder if know i'm there

I sit down take off my make-up
I lay down but you don't wake up
Sometimes i wonder if you even care

I can't remember the last time you
Told me i'm beautiful, and i can't remember
Last time you said anything at all

I'm a woman
A woman with a heart
And i deserve your all
I'm not some girl who don't know what she wants
I'm a woman
And i need to be touched
And i need to be loved
'cause being just your woman is not enough

Now i hope that you don't wake up
When it's too late to make up
You'll be the one that's alone and that's so sad

In time you'll find somebody
The truth is she'll never be me
And that's when you're going to miss what we had

When all i really needed to hear was "you're beautiful"

All i really needed to hear was anything at all

I'm a woman
A woman with a heart
And i deserve your all
I'm not some girl who don't know what she wants
I'm a woman
And i need to be touched
And i need to be loved
'cause being just your woman is not enough

I'm not your friend who only needs you sometimes
And if i'm your lady
You got to treat me like...

I'm a woman
A woman with a heart
And i deserve your all
I'm not some girl who don't know what she wants
I'm a woman
And i need to be touched
And i need to be loved
'cause being just your woman is not enough

Look at me
I'm a woman

my immortal..........

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave                                          

I wish that you would just leave

Because your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me

by your resonating light

But now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

im sorry butterfly......

adeehhh....kesian ku ngga ko wahai butterfly ku.... ku tpaksa mematikan mu...utk masa depanku.... maaf si belalang kerana ku terpaksa berlaku kejam pada diri mu..... tiada apa yg mampu aku lakukan... ku harap Tuhan memahami.... aku terpaksa lakukan demi secebis masa depan... nasib la si katak tiada dalam senarai... jika tidak......huhuhu....

i'm sorry...................

Bungai Ambai Kesulai......

Oh bungai..dinga meh serebana aku mimpi rawan..

Semampai nujah ombak tasik.. gegilik serepam dalam..

Igak nuan enda sinu ninga aku nyabak sesedan..

Ninting ari…nadai lepa minta japai jari nuan..

Ooooohhhhh…. Oooohhhhh……Bungai…

Sayau nuan kesulai rerangai enda ulih terebai..

Kelalu suah patah penepan nadai penyangkai…

Kasih meh aku ninga aku ninga sera nyawa nuan memelan…

Nyapa leka sebana di peda menasan puntan…

Oooohhhhh…..ooooohhhhh….kesulai……

Ohh dini….nuan bungai ti benung ngerembai,

Sada  nyawa di dinga…tubuh enda berupai…

Ditu…aku kesulai… nganti penatai tiap lemai…

Aku sedia ngubat telih nuan nyentuk ke gerai..

Terima bungai nuan sanggup nerima aku nyadi ke sulu

Padam ke meh api serebana

Anang meh ngelebu ati ku..

Badu agik nuan sesindau terebai niga bungai bukai…

Semina ke nuan aku ajak  di empu nuan nyadi ke ambai…

Aram… meh tua belayar…sekapal nuju meligai pengerindu..

Anang ati kakang…nerejah gelombang pasang tasik biru..

Anang nangi…anang ransi… napi ombak api pengunji..

Pegai teguh… semaya danji…begulai sejalai idup sekunsi..

diam seribu bahasa......

adakah diam mampu memberi segala jawapan yang tersirat??? kenapa kau terus diam seribu bahasa??? dimana kau berada sekarang??? hanya 1 ungkapan saja sudah cukup melegakan hati ini....

wahai dirimu...jangan la kau terlalu kejam.... ku x mharapkan apa2 dari mu..... segalanya berakhir disini sahaja...mungkin itu lebih baik....

my sem break~~~

nie la aktiviti aku time cuti.....

kat ruai tuai rmh

tgu YB...wif bdk2...

YB round rmh panjai..

wif YB right..

wif mak n apak

ba perahu...ka pulai...

yeahhh...seberai rmh panjai...

xmas~

my hensem...keith orville....

capuh u....

cuzzy engage...

cuzzy wif Garfield man... herman...

wif cuzzy n herman....

done.... x done......

"enjin nyiur" nak ajak aku jumpa... apoooo.... gney gaya tk??? adeehhh....ku x ready la.... g pun kita tak setaraf...aku bkn sapa2 pun....ttba jak dia ckp nak jmpa klu x bz.... akaidai....huhu.....
                    
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wahhh.... smlm semua janji da ditunaikan... pizza utk ckg hany da setel... hope she like it.... thanx for everything k...be frank, im really miss that kelisa...huhuhu....
smlm juga, beli brg utk amali....fuhhh.... amali yang sangat melampau2 la byk.... baru mgu pertama, amali da belambak... hhuuuummmm sabar je la beta....nampaknya segala aktvti di hujung mgu terpaksa ditunda utk memberi peluang kpd diri ini utk siapkan amali HRT... nanti uncle potong markah.... habislaaa.... mmg x bg peluang punya...
                
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itu kisah petang smlm.... ini hari nie pla..... huhmm...x da apa2 yg best pun.... tadi aku nampak dia lg.... huhm... dia agak x ok.... x sht kot... harap2 ko jaga la kesihatan... hehehe....
alalalala....hujan pula.... cm mna nak klua ambik gmba nie??? adduuuhhh...ini mgalakkn mata utk tdo....keja blm siap lagi... OMG~
                  
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KATAK OH KATAK.... kenapa panggil hujan..... huhuhu.... si katak nie pun entah kat mna daa... bila la kita nak jumpa ya... shark tgu katak msg je.... huhuhu.....

NEW YEAR~

happy new year......2011...... thanx God for everything.......

aku msih disini.....masih bernafas..... masih mampu meneruskan kehidupan....walaupun dugaan tanpa henti yang Engkau datangkan pada ku... Terima kasih juga Tuhan....aku telah mendapat hadih dariMu....sempena New Year.....sesuatu yang tak pernah aku terfikir dala hidup ini..... tetapi ianya dah hampir tak bermakna dalam hidupku......

ku harap ianya akan berguna nanti......

duhai malam yang sayu ini..... aku terfikir sesuatu....... tertanya2.... bila "SI KATAK" nak jumpa aku nie... last year dia da janji daa.... huuhhmmmm...katak oh katak.....